Now, I'm really not meaning to take the piss from any kind of 12-step program, but for someone who's meant to be keeping themselves accountable, the above-mentioned statement is kind of in reverse to how it would be heard in a 12-step program. People would offer words of encouragement at the fact that 27 days of abstaining from something is wonderful. In my case, 27 days of not blogging has resulted in serious weight fluctuation and plateauing - not a good thing at all.
Making yourself accountable
When I started this blog almost 5 months ago now, it was all about making myself accountable. I've had a Floptober and a Fauxvember. What will December hold?
I started this blogpost 5 or 6 days ago, and progressed no further than "What will December hold?"
My girl R and I decided that this week we really needed to get back on track with our MFP tracking. She's been doing fabulously, while I've been going along really crappily! I still have no routine, which is really killing me. I think that over the weekend at some stage, I need to sit down and work out a daily planner so I can make sure that I am accounting for everything: VTMB work, exercise, housework, LGIS work, relaxation, time with A, and so forth. The other thing I need to plan again is meals. Accountability. I should put a sign up in the bathroom with that word.
Accountability score for week ending 2 December: 3/10
Finding out people are reading my blog
I started this blog hoping that people would read it. I'm not sure how many people are reading it, or how many people are bloggers themselves, but it tells you how many people are reading it in the back end maintenance areas. I'm not going to tell you how many people have viewed/read my blog, but the figure is more than I ever expected.
At my girl M's hens night last weekend, I saw some girlfriends I hadn't seen for quite a long time (life gets in the way, but no matter what, I still feel like a terrible friend. I really want to make a concerted effort to see these people more, because I really and truly miss them). As you do, you talk about what you've been up to - work, family, moving house, new jobs, the weather, clumsiness, and reading my blog. I was really, really surprised that my girlfriends read this, and more to the point that they enjoy it. I guess I am surprised that ANYONE reads it.
Now, without wanting to sound conceited (honestly, anyone that has told me this really does make me blush) these girlfriends told me how much they enjoy reading my posts and that I'm a good writer. Again, cue blushing. It made me realise that there really are people who read my blog, and I may have got a little warm and fuzzy.
Blog-writing has kept me accountable for such a long time, so why am I all of a sudden having a hiatus? The same can be said for meal planning and tracking my food on MFP.
Just because I have lost 15kg doesn't mean that I have to stop. I enjoy writing here, I enjoy seeing what food I'm consuming (in terms of calories), I enjoy meal planning, and I enjoy trying new foods. So why on earth am I not doing any of them?
I think what I need to do is reset myself. I don't know how or why, but I haven't gained any weight, aside from the fluctuation. My diet hasn't been fantastic but it hasn't been terrible either.
I mentioned earlier somewhere along the lines (and right now, it's almost 2300 and I really can't be bothered to find the link) that I had been reading Mirelle Guiliano's French Women Don't Get Fat. Mirelle talks about resetting, so I think I'm going to have to revisit that particular chapter, and reset. However, be stuffed if I'm going to be making soups when yesterday was 40 degrees and today was around 30 degrees. Not on your nelly. Instead, I'll have to trade for something more summer friendly.
Sleep is important in weight loss. Eight hours really is best.
It's bed time now. Tomorrow, I'm going to come back and write something proper. I have 31 days to lose 5kg.
Sweet dreams everyone (and please, I really would love if you could take the time to leave a comment!), stay safe, and cool!